2015 Annual Review

December 30th, 2015 15 min read

The purpose of this annual review is for me to reflect on the year by asking these four questions:

  • What went well this year?
  • What didn’t go so well this year?
  • What am I reducing or eliminating?
  • What am I working toward?

This Annual Review is for me. But I would like to share it with you. I want to grow into a more open and transparent person, so in this review, I will share the highs, the lows and all the growth and pain that comes with it.

What went well this year?

Juvoni.com redesign: After postponing (procrastinating) my site relaunch last year, I put some serious work into it this year and over 130 hours later, over the span of three months it was launched in May. A major new feature of the site that has been on my mind for two years now is the books page.[ jb_evolve_jbzard AMEX: I got a position at American Express as a Software Engineer, tasked with developing User Interfaces for the Home Account page. Just two months in, I was asked to help rebuild their existing page. I rose to the challenge and spent my weekends learning new technologies and contributed significantly to the project and page, which attracts to over 1+ million visitors per day. We successfully launched our rebuild to corporate card members early Q4 and the foundation is set for some useful new features for card members in 2016.

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Productivity: I am becoming more mature in productivity techniques, and along with my systems and discipline I have made 2015 a very productive year, having more impact per hour than someone who isn't as mindful about their productivity. My productivity pulse increased from last year, which was a breakthrough year from me. I use rescuetime to track how I use my computer and phone.

2014

2014 Productivity Pulse

2015

2015_Productivity

Finances: I paid off all my student loans (started with 18k) and I'm completely debt free. I'm thankful to my mother for teaching me how to stretch the value of every dollar and make sacrifices. I look at money as a tool, each dollar as a potential investment and made the right decisions early on to get this big burden out of the way. Sophomore year of college while in business school, I taught myself how to code, increasing my employment opportunities, among other motivations. During college, I sacrificed all spring and summer break trips and other vacations to save money and invested heavily in skill set development, living in my second home, the library. Each summer was dedicated to learning a new skill. After graduation, I landed a job but chose to stay at home for another year and a half to save even more money. When the time was right, I made some big career decisions, using skills I had developed and landed multiple signing bonuses with the next few the jobs I took, to put big dents in my loan payments. I had an aggressive budgeting strategy to help me keep more of the money I earned and I fell love with personal finance and investing.Tribe: I have made some progress in connecting with some truly amazing people (Hi PD Nerds!), shout outs to the wonderful people I met this year.No Coffee: Reduction habit, year-long experiment (1 month is child play). I have gone all year without a single cup of coffee.Sleep: I had a serious sleep problem in college. Where I would often go through weeks on 3-5 hours of sleep, especially during exam periods. I would have memory problems, eating issues, basically 12 lbs from junior to senior year. When I started having breathing issues, I knew I needed a significant change. I setup software on my computer to start blocking youtube and Netflix after 10 pm. Took udemy classes to learn more about the science of sleep and ways to optimize it. Enforced bedtimes (big hit on my social life) and invested in tools to track the temperature, light, sound,  humidity and air quality of my room so I could improve the quality of my sleep. In 2014, I made big improvements and in 2015 the consistency and discipline paid off, with sleep hours coming out to 7 hours 29mins Avg Per Day over the course of the year.

2015 Sleep Data by SleepAsAndroid

2015 Sleep Data

Fitness: In 2015, after training 3 times a week, every week for the past 3 years without fail, I made it into the 1, 000 lb club.

  • Bench: 275 lbs
  • Squat: 385 lbs
  • Deadlift: 405lbs

1000lb prep on whiteboard I was curious. What if I didn't listen to my thoughts? What if the body and mind melded together and the limits self-imposed started to vanish away. What if I put in the work and feel in love with the process? What if I delayed gratification and cultivated discipline? What if I took pride in having a bedtime and getting good sleep? What if I ate healthily and treated my body like it was the only one I would have? What if pain is temporary and you saw some forms of it as a sign of growth? What if fear forgot to give you a reminder? What if you didn't doubt yourself?   [ Juvoni Weight Lifting 1000 lb club

Built a Christmas Book Tree with my roommate Conrad this year.

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Writing: A big habit win this year. I have been able to write at least 750 words for over 266 consecutive days . I had heard about 750 words but I hadn't tested it out until this year. I had journaled on and off in the 2 prior years, but I realized the importance of distilling my thoughts into writing and writing more consistently; not waiting on when I felt like it. Writing has given me an outlet to analyze my thoughts, emotions and my behaviors around others. My empathy also improves through writing, by writing more about other people and trying to understand their perspective. I've also been documenting and planning on opportunities for improvement (some people refer to them as weaknesses) over the year. I have come close to failing on multiple occasions. Every day I wake up, writing has to be top of mind, and if I don't write in the morning I need to map out my day to identify potential risks that could impact my streak. Here are some moments I got my writing in on the brink of failure:

  • In the middle of a club during my friend's birthday party in front of a live band, around 11 pm
  • During movie previews around 9:30 pm watching creed, movie finished slightly after midnight.
  • Intermissions for play, The Color Purple with my Mother and Aunt
  • Dinner party long bathroom break around 11:30 pm (they must have thought I was taking a dump, no I was writing)
  • Underground Subway, with low signal,  finished by 11:58 pm

Here is a snapshot of the analysis 750words.com gives you after you complete your writing.[ 750_Word_Pace_Example

What didn’t go so well this year?

Stress: Accomplishments don't come cheap, the level of stress I felt this year was maddening. Psychological pain is one of the worst kinds of pain, there are no pills to numb it, there were times all I could do was ball up in a corner of my room and wait till I calmed down. If I drank, I would be an alcoholic without a doubt, I push myself too hard. I'm prisoner to my ambition, but I know I asked for it. In order to become the strongest version of myself, a certain level of stress is needed.

"Pressure Makes Diamonds."

Weight Goal: At the start of the year, I had set out a goal to gain 10 lbs, from 180lbs. I put together a meal plan, and pre-cooked on Wednesday and Sundays. To gain weight, you need to be in a caloric surplus. For most of the year, with my increased training, I had been at break-even or in a caloric deficit. Eating a lot has been difficult for me. I don't get much pleasure from eating and grew up in an environment where I focused more on nutritional value. I ended up loses 5 lbs, instead of gaining 10. I used the Withings Scale a couple months into the year, to start tracking my weight daily, as the scale uploads your data to the cloud.[ Withings Scale : I have not been able to complete my Coursera Data Science Specialization. On a positive note, the first time I've finished a full Coursera class, and I even completed 3, but there were 8 total courses to take and the workload was too much with all I had going on. I paid close to $300 for the Specialization. I was not able to complete my Android Nanodegree on Udacity. This Nanodegree was $200 per month and I ended up burning 3 months for this course, but was not able to manage with projects with the little time I had available.Relationships**: I had to grow up from a young age, a young boy with the soul of a man. My friend's joke that I'm like a super human learning how to be more machine like. But grew up a closed person, it was the side effects of what I had to do to prepare for this hyper-competitive world. This has impacted relationships. There was this girl, she was very important to me, but I let years slip by before I told her all this and it was too late. I've known her for 10 years. It took me 5 years to realize I loved her. It took another 5 years for me to tell her that. And it all went downhill in less than 5 minutes. This all unfolded the end of last year, but the pain had a delayed effect and bore its full weight on me early this year.

“The marks humans leave are too often scars.” John Green

Before this unraveled, I had a hard time fully investing in other relationships. I've learned to get over that experience, and I am more accepting of being vulnerable. The pain was like a vaccine to me. It's actually made me more open, honest and compassionate.Family:Time won't help. I see a man who is prisoner to his ambition, in order to save his family... I noticed I haven't heard from my mother in a couple weeks. I check in to find out she had been injured on the job, a patient attacked her at the nursing home she works at and she strained her back. Out of work for almost two months, she relied on insurance checks that didn't come. I had spent years, training my emotions, I didn't feel anger. Emotional instability would wreck my focus. I didn't know what to feel, that's why she didn't tell me at the time, she knew. I found out my youngest brother went missing for a day, cops called and all. I found out about this weeks later. He was found safe at a classmate's house.[ Me and my little brother later in the year brother's name. Confused, I look at the clock to see it was 4:30 a.m. I answer, trying to compose myself. I hear this older man, who sounds like an Italian mobster, I began to think, 'cop'. They ask if, this is his brother, I respond yes. As a swarm of worrying thoughts invades my mind, I immediately remind myself, "Observe, Do not Evaluate." We have your brother, he tells me. Oh Shit, I wondered if this was an abduction. The phone was cutting off and he told me he would call me on another number. They explained, my brother's body was found... passed out drunk in some Queens nightclub. They would need me to get there as soon as possible, I was 7 - 10 miles away from them or they would call the ambulance to take him. So began the longest Uber ride of my life. I thought back on my childhood. My brother and I went through the same struggles, growing up on welfare and food samples, raised by a single mother in the Bronx. Drugs, crime and violence, was prevalent. The two most common buildings I remember seeing were liquor stores and churches. You can't drink and pray away your problems, sometimes we have to save ourselves, I remember thinking as I gazed at these ghetto landmarks. I was able to create my own inner world, to shield myself from the environment. My brother couldn't, he needed guidance. As I look back, I realize my ambition may have led me too far from my brother's side. I arrived to pick him up covered in blood and vomit, I saw a young man at his lowest point. My first thoughts were, "I am my brother's keeper." I approached him the way a caring mother moves towards a sick child. I did not judge, I did not blame. I embraced him and his pain. I let him know everything would be ok, and that I would work to disarm my mother's wrath, when she eventually finds out about this. As we got to my place, he was still in and out of consciousness. There was a point, where he began to violently start shaking in his sleep, and I was afraid, he may be suffering from alcohol poisoning, so I called the ambulance that morning. What if I lost my brother that morning? We were always together when we were younger, mommy's little soldiers. We were surviving the world and one of us was a prisoner of war, in this thing called life. He got better. I became his brother again. He's still learning to accept help, but I'm not sure if I'm the right person and that pains me.

 What am I reducing or eliminating?

Over the past 10 years, I have been able to eliminate and or reduce the following:

  • Alcohol (Never drank)
  • Fast Food (Significantly reduced since 2008)
  • Console Games (Stopped playing in 2009)
  • TV (Stopped watching in 2010)
  • Soda (Significantly reduced since 2010 [est.1 bottle per 3 months])
  • PC Games (Stopped playing in 2010)
  • News (Reduced consumption year by year since 2011)
  • Music (Reduced repetitive music listening, replaced with more podcasts since 2011)
  • Youtube (Reduced consumption, with blocking software since 2012)
  • Netflix (Stopped in 2014)
  • Coffee (Significantly reduced. Have not drunk coffee in 2015)

In 2016, I hope to reduce or eliminate the following:

  • Clothing
    • I want to simplify. Too much clothing leads to decision overload and extra clutter.
  • Electronics
    • I have too many electronics.
  • Decisions
    • I want to reduce the amount of decisions I make on a day to day basis. I've already laid the groundwork, with habits, "IF-THEN" rules, and other systems, but there is a ton of improvement to be had in this area.

What am I working toward?

Consistent Blog Posts: I have put in place a more solid writing system using Evernote, Scrivener, Trello and 750words.com which will empower me to get more of my writing out in 2016 and beyond.Being More Timely: I am chronically late to things. At times, I'm too immerses in what I'm currently doing and I have a hard time doing time estimates when I've just come out of a state of flow. I tend to load my calendar, and I'm unfair when it comes to prioritizing my habits over social obligations. I need to work on not being late as often.Morning person: Being someone who rises early, is important to be because I wouldn't have to keep making as many sacrifices to my social life. When I finish my full-time job, I go straight to work on my other habits and projects and I'm not afraid to say NO, in defense of this evening time. In the morning, I would have an opportunity to get these things out of the way, so I can be more flexible later in the day.Posture: Working as a Software Engineer, you sit a lot. The industry isn't that old where the negative effects are widespread with back problems, but I can see it coming. I want to be proactive and consciously work towards preventing back issues and improving my posture.Swimming: I never learned to swim growing up, I guess I should work on this as well, for safety reasons... so I don't drown or anything.Driving: Being a city kid has spoiled me, I don't even have a drivers permit. For a long time, I saw cars as "Roadtrip-mobiles." When I worked in consulting, my colleagues had to chauffeur me around. 2016 is the year I learn how to drive! Spanish: In my question for learning how to learn, I knew learning a language would be on the agenda sooner or later. I grew up in the south Bronx within a strong Hispanic community, a number of my friends are from South America, DR or PR and I've always felt a desire to understand that part of their culture. In 2016, I will invest more time in learning Spanish.Reading More Fiction: I need to read more fiction, no more excuses.Studying books I've previously read: I need to reflect more on books I've previously read. I will try not to be too overly aggressive in reading new books and opt to take more notes of older books. These notes will eventually be published to my books page .Building More Things: I want to focus more on creation in 2016.

“The worst part of holding the memories is not the pain. It's the loneliness of it. Memories need to be shared.” Lois Lowry

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